I was wallowing around in "I suck, I can't finish writing anything" last weekend. I am done with that, however, and on to "I may have alot of unfinished stuff, but I have alot of damned fine things I've finished, too!"
Okay, none of those damned fine finished things are manuscripts. But here's the thing. I am very creative. I am crafty. I like to make stuff. I quilt, I knit, I spin. I like to get to the bare bones of a craft project and start with the raw materials. A friend turned me on to scrap booking about 15 years ago, and as I started buying fancy papers and rubber stamps, I got interested in making my own papers and rubber stamps. I started quilting, and while I did't go as far as growing my own cotton, I have done some fabric painting and printing and stuff like that. I knit, and I love the fancy yarns, and taught myself how to spin. We know someone who raises sheep, so I got some raw fleeces from him and cleaned them, and dyed them, and...can I just say that sheep are some nasty-ass creatures? Phew.
I dyed and spun the wool for this before I knit it!
I spent a few hours in my craft room Saturday sorting and pitching and rearranging things and realize that, while I have enough raw materials to stock a new Hobby Lobby store, I have alot of UFO's (unfinished objects) in various stages between "done" and "not started". I have lots of stuff I've finished and not shown anyone, too. And that's okay!
A few years ago I worked with a woman who competes in women's figure competitions (it's body building, but not as bulky), and she said to me, "You sew, will you make me a suit?" Ummm. Okay. And I did. I went throught miles and miles of spandex and elastic before I got something that sort of worked. I have a huge pile of bikini bits in my basement, but I finally finished a suit. God love her, Abbie wore it in competition. And I learned what I needed to do to make a better suit. I started making suits for other women, some of whom won their competitions. Business has trickled off because the requirements for the posing suits have changed, but I learned alot from jumping into that project. I learned that I need a lot of trial an error and that I will have many, many false starts before I get something right.
So instead of beating myself up for not having a finished manuscript (less than a year after I decided to get serious about learning to write), I am going to focus on appreciating the things that I HAVE finished. Maybe I'll get out some new words and toss them together to see how they look on the old design board.